Wow, 2017 went by like a storm. I’m not sure if its that I am getting older or that time is really speeding up, but I felt like 2017 went faster than any other year. Now, maybe that has something to do with all the things that happened. As I reflect on 2017, there are some highlights that really stand out for me. Some good and some not so much.
It feels important to reflect back over the year. To give myself credit for some really awesome stuff that I created and the space to release the things that need to be let go. Maybe you can do the same for yourself.
I started off the year with a bang in my J.O.B. as a course creator/trainer. I played a key role in a few projects that were in the spotlight and brought a ton of exposure to me and to my work and it continued throughout the year. This was significant for me because for the previous 9 years I was a wallflower. Staying hidden in the background, off the radar. This was a fabulous growth experience for me overall.
I also had quite a few challenges in my J.O.B. I learned a lot about myself, trusting my intuition and the guidance I receive. My body alerted me to an old emotional wound that surfaced when I ran into a particular challenge at work. I became aware of the issue and trusted my intuition to guide me through it. This was the first time in my life that a physical problem healed so quickly. I allowed myself to feel in to the emotional wound, acknowledged it, processed it, and let it go. This all happened in about a week or so. This same emotional wound appeared some years ago and it physically lasted two years because I didn’t have the awareness, the know how, or the tools to acknowledge, process, and release it.
In my business I’ve had some amazing successes, a few challenges, and a bunch of aha’s. This has led me to shift where I’m headed in 2018. I have grown so much. I have uncovered more hidden truths within me. I recognized the fear that was stopping me from stepping in to the work I love so much and have wanted to share for so long in a public way. I’ve stopped doing things that I no longer have passion for. I’ve trusted my intuition to release what no longer was needed and made room for what is to be.
My personal life has been quite interesting as well in 2017. There are some things I’ve shared publicly and others I haven’t. Let me tell you about some of the most impactful events.
My Most Favorite Car was totaled in a icky car accident
In May of this year (can’t recall exactly) I had a car accident. It was a scary one. We’re still not sure what caused it other then it was a mechanical failure of some sort. I was traveling at high speed on the freeway in rush hour traffic, when I thought someone hit me from the rear end. I felt my car jerk and I heard a loud boom. Next thing I know, my car spins out of control (from the middle lane) and all I could see was that I was headed straight for the concrete median. Next think I know, my car had spun all the way around, crossing two lanes of traffic, and ended up facing the wrong direction with the backside of my car leaning on the concrete median. Now, let’s talk about the miracle that happened here. No other car was involved, I was not hurt, physically anyway, and my car was still opertable (sort of). If there was one thing that I learned from that experience, it was that I am watched over. It’s something I’ve always known and felt, but on this day, it was confirmed without a doubt. Positive things did come from this experience; I recognized that although you think you’re okay after an event such as this, you really aren’t and you need to process it and get it out of your energy field, which takes time. And a few other experiences emerged that were eye-opening about some people in my life, some good, some not so good. And the picture may not look all that bad, but the integrity (the frame broke) of the car was compromised, so it had to be totaled.
My Beloved Saguaro Cactus died this summer
I live in an area that is mostly desert-like. I had majestic, old and large saguaro that sat in our backyard, right outside our back patio. It had 6 large arms on it and it was taller than our house. Often, I would sit on my patio and take in its beautiful energy. At night I could see its aura. It was also home to many birds. Once day in early July, I came home to find that one of the arms fell off. It was laying on the ground. I inspected both the saguaro and the arm to what had happened. I didn’t see anything that could have caused this to happen. So, I researched. Come to find out, it had a bacteria growing inside of it. It was black, goopy, and smelly. There was nothing we could do but let it run its course. It took about 6 weeks for it to completely fall apart. I wanted to leave it and hoped its skeleton would stay put. My hubby had a different idea. Because of the smell and the horrendous bacteria that was spewing out of it, we took it down and dug out the root. We wanted to do what we could to keep that nasty stuff from spreading to other Saguaros nearby. So what lesson did I take away from this experience? I feel like this Saguaro took on a role in helping me to release some really icky stuff. Not just from this year, but maybe my entire life. I don’t know how to explain how I know this to be true, I just know. I am forever grateful to this beauty for its assistance and sacrifice.
My Beautiful Cat used up all his 9 lives
This was the toughest thing of all this year. My cat, Mr. Kitty, disappeared one day in October. I tried my best to keep him inside. For the first few years, he was content staying in the house. Then one day, he started insisting that he go outside. So, at first, I let him go out on the patio and mosey along. He was happy with this arrangement for a few weeks. Then, he began to wonder. He was an excellent hunter, too good, to be honest. He’d catch mice, cute little ground squirrels, birds, and rabbits. We allowed him to go out and do his thing because anytime we’d call him, he would always come back in to the house with no resistance. I would often tell him that I was worried for him being out and about in our environment (we have lots of predators like owls, hawks, coyotes, and bob cats). You may think this is a little weird, but he would respond and tell me he could take care of himself and not to worry so much. And I knew the day would come when he wouldn’t return. But you know what? His personality completely shifted once he started going outside on a regular basis. He became the most lovable cat I’ve ever had. He would snuggle, follow me everywhere, and was a happy, happy guy. I felt like he was living the life that he wanted and he was enjoying every single moment. Who was I to take that away from him? The saving grace for me when he didn’t return that day in October, was that he died happy and content. I made a conscious decision to let him live his life the way he wanted, not the way I wanted him to. I accepted that he was willing to take a risk to be happy. How many humans do you know who never get to experience life this way? I know plenty. So let this be a lesson about living life on your terms, take risks, and be happy.
So, there you have it. My life highlights. I found it interesting that the three most significant not so great events in my personal life all started with a “C”. Hmmm….not a coincidence, I’m sure.
Hopefully, this will give you something to consider about your life in 2017. What can you take away from 2017 that helped you to grow and evolve. I think 2018 will bring many more wonderful experiences, successes, challenges and even more aha’s. And I hope for you too!